January 12, 2004.
they say i am getting attached, maybe they are right, but what is it exactly, that i am getting attached to?
i try not to miss you. i try to have memories instead. good memories - because most of them are. but sometimes i can't help myself.
all the time that we have spent together has not been perfect. more often than once i have even wished that perhaps you weren't there.
but the perfect times have been perfect.
these are the times that i miss. the things that i am attached to.
i never meant to, but i will miss you when you are gone.
it will hurt me more than i wanted to let it.