April 15, 2004.

falling in love.

sometimes i wonder if my heart is too big. i think i fall in love too easily, or at least, i am always ready to tell people i love them, even when i'm not sure i do.

and when i am sure, i wait. i don't tell them until they are positive. until the gray world is coloured or the coloured world is brighter. although this has only happened once.

sometimes, it is hard to throw away spoiled things that were once beautiful. and you may get a new one, maybe even a better one.

but it won't be the same.

there will be a place for him in my life, and in my heart, always.

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