October 21, 2005.

nowhere to go.

i wanted to disappear into the abyss and there was none.

instead, i thought about spending the night on the street like a homeless person.

i just wanted to watch the stars and not be afraid,
i wanted to have faith in humanity.
in life.

and even as i thought all of this i knew that what should be real never would be.

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