September 16, 2003.

all these facts remain.

perhaps it is that i have not seen my boyfriend in a very very long while, but the fact remains that he says that his work, friends and family are too important for him to be moving down here anytime soon. where does that put me in the ladder of importance?

the fact also remains that i have met a boy, and i have not been this attracted to anyone in over three years. the fact remains that in spending a mere two days together we have formed a connection i have not felt in a long time. and he can converse about death.

the fact also remains that despite having my phone number he has not called or messaged me yet, and ham is coming to visit this weekend.

i am so confused, but really all i can do is wait.

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