September 05, 2003.
the way of life.
i lie on the mattress, staring at the ceiling. i have been staring at it for some time.
"how could she die?" i ask my dad. he hugs me, and says barely audibly
"i didn't look after her well enough, that's why. i was always annoying her."
i am mortified that this thought has even crossed his mind.
"don't think that." i say.
"nobody could have done more for her than you did. she was lucky to have you."
we all are.